The pressures placed on first daughters in Nigerian households can be crushing. Whether they are taking over parenting duties or performing hard chores in the home, finding time for themselves can sometimes be difficult.
We spoke to 5 Nigerian women who are first daughters about what makes them burn out in their families and how they manage it.
鈥淵ou鈥檙e somehow supposed to take care of your parents and act like a second mum.鈥 鈥 Adebusayo
What makes you burn out?
The expectations. Whew. You鈥檙e expected to be the golden child, the responsible one, the one who knows better, whether you鈥檙e 13 or 30. You鈥檙e somehow supposed to be the perfect example for your siblings, take care of your parents (even emotionally), and basically act like a second mum. Then you add black tax on top of that 鈥 the financial responsibilities you didn鈥檛 sign up for but feel guilty about if you don鈥檛 fulfil.
The pressure to always be available emotionally, mentally, and financially. The black tax is draining, especially when you feel like you can鈥檛 even breathe before someone needs something from you. But what really pushes me to burnout is being treated like the deputy parent. Like when my mum calls and says, 鈥淭alk to your sibling, they鈥檙e misbehaving,鈥 and I鈥檓 just like鈥 ma鈥檃m, I鈥檓 not the parent here. Why is it my job to fix it? Little things like that 鈥 stacked on everything else 鈥 make you feel stretched too thin.
What do you do when you鈥檙e burned out?
Honestly? Choosing peace. If I鈥檓 not in the mood to talk, I won鈥檛 answer calls. If I need space, I take it. I don鈥檛 over-explain anymore. I just leave and recharge on my own terms. That might look like ignoring calls from home, saying NO when it鈥檚 not convenient for me, or simply delaying the 鈥渇ix it鈥 until I feel ready. Because if I keep saying yes to everyone else, I鈥檓 saying no to myself 鈥 and I can鈥檛 do that anymore.
鈥淚t鈥檚 not by force to become a mini mummy.鈥 鈥 Damilola
What makes you burn out?
The idea that I should suddenly know what to do and start taking care of everyone. Like, we鈥檙e all living life for the first time 鈥 let my siblings figure it out the same way I did. It鈥檚 not by force to become a mini mummy.
What do you do when you鈥檙e burned out?
I sleep. I don’t let it get to me. Nothing special about it. Why should I be worrying unnecessarily? If you ignore everybody, you won’t burn out.
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鈥淵ou don鈥檛 own your life till you鈥檙e in your twenties.鈥 鈥 Bolu
What makes you burn out?
When you鈥檙e the first daughter and the only daughter, it feels like you鈥檙e carrying a lot, in terms of being overprotective and also shouldering the chore. You鈥檙e not free. You don鈥檛 own your life till you鈥檙e in your twenties.
There are sometimes that you see people 鈥 your friends 鈥 doing some fun stuff but you don鈥檛 have the time to participate in it because you have so much work to do at home. That was how I was living my life for a long time. Even after I went to university, I had to school in Lagos so I could be close to home.
What do you do when you鈥檙e burned out?
I cry. I talk to my mother about it, but I also can鈥檛 tell her everything. I also speak to a friend of mine to just speak, release, because if I don鈥檛 talk to anybody about it, I might just crash out.
鈥淚t鈥檚 mad, stupid expectations.鈥 鈥 Aaliyah
What makes you burn out?
Expectations. It鈥檚 mad, stupid expectations. It鈥檚 not even the expectations that your parents set for you. It鈥檚 the one you set for yourself. It鈥檚 very crazy. Like you鈥檙e always expected to do really well. That makes you burn out.
It鈥檚 not having anyone to rely on. Your younger siblings have someone to fall back on. You have no one. And you鈥檙e doing everything and your parents are trying to use you as test run. And they are not doing it on purpose. You always feel like you have to do it, there is no emplate.
What do you do when you鈥檙e burned out?
I create my own space. I spend time with myself alone and I don鈥檛 do anything related to work. I just rest or spend bastard money on myself.
鈥淚 keep postponing it and sleeping basically.鈥 鈥 Adebola
What makes you burn out?
The fact that I had to be a parent at a young age. The fact that I cannot ask anyone for money because they think I have and they think I should be the one giving them instead. By them, I mean my mom and siblings. The responsibility that comes with it, the fact that you can鈥檛 fuck up, and the expectation that you鈥檇 have to be the one to lift the family.
What do you do when you鈥檙e burned out?
I haven鈥檛 handled it. I keep postponing it and sleeping basically.
